Memories in Paraphrase

I'm never going to understand the reasons why people think they way they do. Nor will I understand why people do what they dor or anything. I don't see why everyone thinks they need attention to get by or why people think they have to be the oddball. It never makes sense to me, never will. All these +aw people keep coming into #sailormoon and those that I talk to who claim to not support them lie and do it anyways, however subtly. Hypocracy or whatever, I'll never know. Next time I see someone with a nick like "soandso-SAD" or whatever, I will go into full bitch mode. It really pisses me off to see all these +aw people. I get enough of that from a certain someone on IRCNet's #anime.

Alot of the time, I feel bad for the people around me. I've been very moody lately, or manic-y, however you'd like to put it. One moment I'm perfectly fine and then for no reason whatsoever, I'm bitchy and yelling at whoever and completely mistreating them. I wouldn't be surprised if everyone I call "friend" completely gives up on me and tells me to fuck off. That would be interesting... I'm not sure what I'd do in that sort of situation. It's always been my fear that I wouldn't have anyone to remotely call friend. I'd prolly go insane after that. I need people around me, support and whatnot... But I wouldn't be surprised to be abandoned after some of the stunts I pull. I still maintain the philosophy that if everyone around me hated me, I could hate them back and be done with it. What a double-edged sword that is. I need people around me but if I hated them and they hated me, I'd be fine... HA... Just a bundle of walking contradiction here.

Regardless, I'll be okay... Can't be anything but okay... always okay... that's good, right?