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::sigh:: I'm bored... I hate it when I'm bored. My dad keeps yelling at me for spending so much time online and blah blah blah. He refers to me "holing up in my room all day." Dad, if my computer wasn't in my room, I'd continue to hole up in my room because I don't want to watch politics all day. That's all he does... Sure, it's interesting, but 24-7?? Ick, no thank you.
It's Lesbian Friday today and still I'm bored. That's wrong, I know... most of my people are missing, Jen never called me today, I didn't realize how late it was until I wanted to call Zacharaia. I remember in middle school how I had to nag Jen to make her remember to call me back; of course, it was funny then. She'll prolly tell me she didn't have my number or something like that, even tho the night before she confirmed it.
You know how people always say "you never know what you have until you loose it"? That is one of the truest cliches in the whole bunch. I haven't lost anything, except maybe my marbles, but that was a long time ago and I'll never miss 'em but right now, it feels like I am. Lack of sleep? Hardly... ::sigh:: I don't know... I'm not stressed, I'm not upset, I'm actually alright today... I don't know what's wrong though... :/
It's not like I ever know what's wrong. I just get depressed out of the blue all the time and withdraw from most people for a while. That's the worst thing that I can think of, is being a burden to people. Well, the people that I really care about, at least. I don't even get into it with most people and of my closest friends, there are very few I care to discuss my problems with at all. Certain problems, at least... You can't tell Person A that you have a problem with them so you talk to Person B about Person A. Or maybe I just feel more comfortable around Person C then Person B so I can tell Person C nearly anything I want. I don't know... ::sigh:: And it makes me feel bad to rationalize things like that.
Sometimes I hate the way I can't express what I want to say... But then again, it's a common problem, no?
It's Lesbian Friday today and still I'm bored. That's wrong, I know... most of my people are missing, Jen never called me today, I didn't realize how late it was until I wanted to call Zacharaia. I remember in middle school how I had to nag Jen to make her remember to call me back; of course, it was funny then. She'll prolly tell me she didn't have my number or something like that, even tho the night before she confirmed it.
You know how people always say "you never know what you have until you loose it"? That is one of the truest cliches in the whole bunch. I haven't lost anything, except maybe my marbles, but that was a long time ago and I'll never miss 'em but right now, it feels like I am. Lack of sleep? Hardly... ::sigh:: I don't know... I'm not stressed, I'm not upset, I'm actually alright today... I don't know what's wrong though... :/
It's not like I ever know what's wrong. I just get depressed out of the blue all the time and withdraw from most people for a while. That's the worst thing that I can think of, is being a burden to people. Well, the people that I really care about, at least. I don't even get into it with most people and of my closest friends, there are very few I care to discuss my problems with at all. Certain problems, at least... You can't tell Person A that you have a problem with them so you talk to Person B about Person A. Or maybe I just feel more comfortable around Person C then Person B so I can tell Person C nearly anything I want. I don't know... ::sigh:: And it makes me feel bad to rationalize things like that.
Sometimes I hate the way I can't express what I want to say... But then again, it's a common problem, no?
